Diseased! PrussiaXReader

Never let me go...

Everything was silent inside the room, Gilbert was looking outside the window and you were looking at him. You looked at the door and saw many nurses pass by, a busy hospital.

"_____ you don't have to stay with the awesome me all day." He smiled at you, "But Gilbert-!" Before you could protest he talked again. "I know, I know, at least go eat something." He gave you a small smile, and pointed at the door. You stood up and walked towards it, but looked aback at Gilbert, he smiled and said. "The awesome me won't go anywhere." You just smiled at him and walked out the room. Erasing the fake smile you had given to him from your face, you walked down the hall.


'Gilbert...You are not going anywhere?'
Gilbert Beilschmidt, a 'Prussian' boy you had met when you were 5 years old, he had always been there for you since then, saving you from everybody and everything. He said he was always going to be with you...But that promise, seemed so far away now...
He had been sick for a long time now, he always stayed in the hospital and you stayed with him. You loved him...But had never told him.


It's snowing today; you had a scarf around your neck.
It was curious, how snow used to make you happy and now, it made you sad. The day they told you Gilbert was very sick, it was snowing. That day your heart stopped and you didn't move, the words playing again and again in your head, '______.....Gilbert is sick, very sick .And he...he may not stay too long with us.' The voice of his brother saying those words couldn't get out of your head.


Walking to get a coffee and some bread, you saw Ludwig. He gave you a small and sad smile, you gave one back and nodded, leaving him behind, without a word.
As you got a coffee you turned to see the usually cheerful Italian with a sad smile as he waved at you. "Ciao, ______." He said, you gave him a quick 'hi'. "You should go to your house and rest," He looked at the bags under your eyes.  "Just a little."  You looked at a window that was near, watching snow fall. "You know I won’t do that..." "...Ve. Okay, _____.I'll see you around." He smiled and ran to Ludwig. His brother, Lovino stood in front of you. "I'm sorry," He said, a hint of sadness in his voice. "I'm sorry." He repeated and walked away.


Walking back to Gilbert's room, you stopped at an open window and reached your hand out. Snow pilling up in your hand, you pressed it and saw water run down your hand.
You looked at the corridor and started to walk again.


Opening the door and walking inside, you saw Gilbert's hand touching the window before he took it back.
Siting next to him, you asked him if he wanted, at which he shook his head and told you to eat it.


"Gilbert..." You said. "Yes?" He didn't look at you. He was looking how the snow fell. "Tell me, Do you feel pain?" "No." You held back tears. "Do you feel lonely?" "No," He wasn't looking at you, "______," He called. "Yes, Gilbert?" "Do you feel pain?" He looked at you, your eyes were red and some tears escaped from your eyes. "Yes." You said while wiping some, but  they kept falling. "Do you feel lonely?" He said, reaching to touch your hair. "Y-Yes." You managed to say, he wiped some tears of your face and then looked again at the window.


The snow that was on the streets, pilling up, it was painful to see it. Remembering the days you played with him...The day they told you.
"______," He called at you, you wiped some of the remaining tears, "Yes?"
"Sing me, a happy song." He smiled at you, and stared at him. He always said that, when he was sick or sad or you were, he would say 'Sing me a happy song, _______' 'I'll sing a happy song for you, so don't be sad.' Your eyes filled once again with  
tears but you hold them back, "Alright," You smiled weakly "I'll sing for you." You started to sing for him, as he smiled  
and just heard you sing.
"I always liked your voice, _____." He smiled playfully, "How does mein awesome voice sound?" He asked. "It sound very good  
Gilbert." You smiled. "Really? I can barely hear it now." He said, with a little of sadness and fear in his voice. It was true, his voice was getting weaker...


"______," He said, weakly. "Gilbert," You were once again holding back tears, he was cold, his voice was almost gone, his eyes were shutting, "______, thank you." Was what Gilbert said, slowly turning his head to look at the door and then at you. He smiled and took your hand, his hands were cold, and slowly losing their force.
"Gilbert...!" He didn't answer, "Hey Gilbert...!" "Hey...G-Gilbert...I love you." The words I have waited so long to say, finally found their way out, but it was too late. The world we have built together had reached an end. "Don't leave me alone! Don't...Don't go." You begged.

I screamed so hard, letting all the tears run down my face and fall in to the white blanket that his bed had. "AHHHHHHHHHH!"
Someone came running through the door, "Brother...!" He said, the pain reaching him. "Brother!" He yelled, his eyes getting red and tears forming.
"_____-chan...Please come." Kiku tried to get you away from Gilbert's body. "No! No..." You looked at Kiku, "I'm never letting him go." You cried, still holding Gilbert's hand.

I screamed and screamed, wishing his voice was back.
It doesn't matter how hard I scream, he won't hear me, he won't come back.




'You said we would always be together...

You said you would protect me...

Can you still hear me?

Can you feel my pain?




I love you.'